First Steps

Nothing is cuter than the toddle of a small child holding his arms out shoulders raised in order to help keep balance to his small torso intently lifting each leg in front of the other to step across the room. Watching each one of our girls learn to take their first steps is forever photographed in my mind as one of my favorite milestones.

Our son, recently turned one and began taking his first steps weeks before his first birthday. His face was all smiles. Frequent glances to mom and dad cued us to applaud as he was waiting to be praised for his courageous act. Desperate for our approval. It was obvious he was nervous but also overwhelmed with delight. I savored each step taking in each moment and for the first time realized the most amazing picture of what trusting God with each of my steps really looked like.

Just like our sweet little boy eager to be praised with each unsteady step, I too feel so drawn to move forward taking a step in the right direction and know with certainty that I am really doing it; moving independently on my own but with each step being carefully watched and directed by my Father. Desperately wanting each step to be pleasing to God.

Wondering what job is in store for my husband, hoping for the loneliness to pass and a place to plug into church for our family. Fearfully trying to believe that God is capable of taking care of my dad’s illness.

It takes my son several minutes just to walk to the end of the couch. I share the struggle of this task as it seems simply daunting  at times to walk down the road of thoughts in my mind. A road made up of rough terrain and many obstacles.

I believe God! I Believe you will provide the money we need, but I don’t see how it can happen in time?.....I trip with doubt and fall to my face in fear.

Up again with praise for watching God work in my marriage. Weeks later, stumble to the ground with haunting thoughts about our past. We have overcome so much, walked a long journey to heal and get to where we are. Step.... step.... step.... all steps of conviction; God has a plan and a purpose, I can trust Him, I do believe!

Each step brings more strength, a balance to my soul. Each fall a frustrating reminder of my need of a father.

you won’t fall daughter just trust me, I have made you strong and capable to take each step. I will guide you and satisfy your every need. Just keep walking.

God nurtures our every step; taking us by the hand when we reach out in fear. Please God don’t let me fall, I want to trust, I want to choose not to worry.

Gently guiding us with his arms in the direction we should go; it seems crazy to others but being without work will be the best for our family, we must choose our family!
God applauds each step of strength that stands confident of the truth - for this brings Him such delight and glory!

A child’s first steps..... an entertaining process to watch and a teachable lesson in how victorious each step really is.